once...

once you stop caring what other people think more than yourself, 
and you've hit rock bottom, 
it is so freeing, 
you are free to do as you please, 

so don't be afraid to hit rock bottom, 
don't be afraid to ask for help, 
because if i never asked anyone for help, 
i wouldn't be where i am today, 

if i never asked for help, 
i wouldn't be alive 

you don't have to trust anybody, 
but you have to trust yourself, 

you don't have to love anybody, 
except you have to love yourself, 

you don't have to fear any one, 
but be honest with yourself and figure out what you fear, 
because if you don't it will eat you alive, 

and if you can't sleep, 
you'll still have dreams, 
and if you can't dream, 
then you won't be able to live, 
and if you're not living, 
then you might as well.. 

not give a fuck, 
so just love yourself, 
respect yourself, 
respect women, 
respect your parents, 

but listen to your heart, 
listen to the voices inside of your head, 
you don't have to seek violence, 
you don't have to seek anything, 

just listen to the dreams inside your head, 
because they'll only be there till you're dead, so dream little darling, dream

Everybody Smiles in Photographs

And if we judged the world on FB and Instagram

I guess the world would be a happy place

And if we judge the world on FOX news and the New York Times

I guess the world wouldn't be so great, a disgrace

And if we judged the world on photographs

Everybody is smiling

And if we judge the world on the holocaust

Everybody is dying

And if we judged the world on Twitter and TMZ

Everybody is f*cking crazy

And if we judged the world and 

we just looked at you and me

I guess the world is crazy

And if we judged the world by looking in the mirror

I guess we wouldn't be able to take the sadness

And if we judged the world on Harvard and Penn

Everybody is using drugs, and 

just putting too much pressure on themselves

And if we judged the world by you and me

I guess the world is irrational

And if we judged the world by alcoholics and potheads
I guess everybody just indulges

And if we judged the world on Einstein and Schrodinger

I guess the world doesn't even exist

And if we judged the world just looking at the roses

Then everything would be fine and dandy

And if we judged the world on all the strangers

I guess we'd smile and take their candy

And if we judged the world on all the homeless people

I guess we'd cry ourselves to sleep

And if we judged the world on all the soldiers
I guess we'd think most people have discipline

And if we judge the world on Rock and Roll
I guess we'd think everybody takes everything for granted

But if we just stopped judging the world

and looked at ourselves in the mirror

and we looked into the eyes of our children

and we believed the world can be a better place tomorrow.

If we just believed

If we had faith in our fellow man

but no, we judge the world based off of MTV, 

the real world, road rules, rappers, athletes

we're just so busy judging

so busy placing blame

too bad lady liberty is blind

I guess i'm so f*cked up that I forgot

or too young to realize

cause if we just looked at all the parties and 

all the balloons and all the people

what would we even see

if we just looked at ourselves in the mirror

and stopped acting as if

would we realize

that the biggest joke

the biggest joke is on me

if we just stopped for a second

and we closed our eyes

and we tried to comprehend

could we?

we couldn't

we can never understand

the horror

the tragedy

the sadness

the holocausts that take place everyday

but what do i know

you're busy judging me

and I'm busy putting too much pressure on myself

just putting too much pressure on themselves

right because that's what we like to

just put all this pressure on ourselves

like diamonds

but we're like diamonds in the sky

but what do i know

you're busy judging me

and i'm busy trying to change the world

when i should just be worrying about myself

who knows

maybe god knows

maybe god can tell me why

maybe one day he'll tell me why

but one day i'll be gone

one day you'll be gone

but the world

well who knows

maybe the world will still be turning

maybe the music will still be playing

who knows

i asked an angel in my dream

and she just stared back at me

poof 

she's gone

i guess it's like that

nobody will ever understand

life is what you make of it

life is what you choose to be

life is whatever you want it to be

if you want life to be a bitch

then get high everyday

pretend like Jesus did it

who cares

but if you want to make the most of it

or you want to make the worst of it

it doesn't matter to me

or so I say

i like to think

it should only matter to you

and nobody will ever understand me

but i never told you to understand

i just want you to realize that 

everybody smiles in pictures

so don't judge the world by 

facebook and instagram

twitter and tweets

judge the world by the scars and the regrets

the scars and the regrets

because life is one big mistake

well not really but...

so make the most of it while you're still here

imagine a world with no mirrors

imagine a world with no photographs

would you like the reflection staring back at you?

would you like it

would you love it

would you put no one above you

i stopped asking the world for love

because its a cold world

with cold wars

world war 1, world war 2

1,2,3

revolutions everyday

but we just keep on keeping on

we just perpetuate the past

perpetuate the future

pretend like life's a present

preparing for the future

picking meticulously

trying to pick out the patterns

that have some meaning

that have something in them

all these objects that surround

all these places that i go

all these people that i see

it's not even people

it's just faces

it's just eyes

just eyes

staring back at me

rarely

just eyes

rolling away

rolling in the distance

rolling in the deep

rolling eyes

wasting my time

but time you enjoy wasting

well that's not wasted time

right

they say you gotta know when to hold em

you gotta know when to fold em

you gotta know when to take them for a ride

but what kind of ride is this

a drive by

the way i live my life

one moment at a time

one second

one instant

life's not filled with a book of faces

and instagrams

instantaneous reactions

instantaneous solutions

in an instant we expect the world

in a 140 characters we expect

tweets and twitters

something truly profound

but the world is round

and i lost touch right?

i'm floating somewhere off the ground

but i feel so grounded

like a circuit

like a system

like something you would never understand

life is filled with sadness

life is filled with pain

life is filled with the bitter

so you can understand the better

Cause if we judged the world on Facebook and Instagram

I guess the world would be a happy place

but the world isn't a happy place

blind optimism can only take you so far

in the world of the blind

we think the one eyed man is king

nah it's worse than that

cause in my world

the world is blind

and the blind man is king

oh man 

i stopped living life

looking for jewels and royals

cause im not impressed

i get upset

not depressed

as i watch the world rewind and regress

but i digress as i often do

because if we judged the world on facebook and instagram

then the world wouldn't make much sense

because everybody smiles in photos and photographs

but the world is so complex

it's so much more than graphics on a screen

so much more than windows and lions and linux

the world is so complex

but we think it's so simple

and its a complex problem trying to simplify things 

no matter if they are simple or complex

but i digress as i often do

cause if we judged the world on facebook and instagram

well you know everybody smiles in photos and photographs

Music Is / Music Isn't

Music isn't about being new, flashy, or me or my ego, music is about the test of time, music is about being transcendent, it's not about what's hot right now, it's about forever, music lives on longer than any individual, music is art, art is music, art imitates reality, reality imitates art, welcome...

Can You?

i used to not believe, but now i believe i believe words have power i believe music holds power i believe our bodies hold power i believe our brains hold power beyond any measure in the universei believe that humans have powerbefore you change the world you have to change yourselfand i believe i can changecan you?

I'll Pray for You

I'll pray to a God that I barely believe in
because I'm happy that I'm barely breathing

When I got time she got freedom
When a heart breaks
No, it don't break even

Odds or evens
I live my life flipping quarters
To keep my sanity
everyday is a bet
and I bet on my sanity

Heads or tails
it doesn't matter anymore
cause you flip the coin
and once it's in the air
you'll know what you want

I want love
I want life
I want freedom
I don't want anything
I need
I feed off of the love
I feed off of the positive energy

yet there are so many haters trying to bring me back down to reality
oops there goes gravity

ain't no one gonna break my stride
pride is the sign of a foolish man
so who the f, you think you're talking to

i'm right here in the flesh i'm right in front of you
i love it when you haters be laughing saying my name
it seems like your mouth is not connected to your brain
you think you're hot shit but you just got diarhea of the mouth
and i stopped caring about tommy aches in 8th grade
cause I still don't give a fuck

i got time
she got freedom
i pray to a god that i barely believe in
when a heart breaks
no, it don't break even

and what am i supposed to
like i care about myself
me in this place
i put my ego on the shelf
and i walk the streets
and ppl ask me how i get my head in the door
and i respond that i'm a amirror of you
i guess you don't like your reflection today
but you gotta loook yourself in the mirror everday
in this place, look into your eyes and you'll see your soul
do you like hat you see

close your eyes
let freedom take over
let boredom kick in
but substitute boredom with serenity

and do a serenity prayer for yourself
cause nobody else cares
cause we all die one day
and you'lll end up alone
and it doesn't matter to me
cause as long as my heart's still beating
i'll never forget that when a heart breaks
it don't break even.

The Man

The man
The myth
The legend

The poet
The painter
The man
The artist

I'd rather be a tornado or a volcano then be a dormant mountain
waiting for my next avalanche

I'd rather be in control
than be a wrecking ball with only destruction

to be the best
you have to beat the best

we are the champions
but there's no competition

Instead I'll be a crane
Instead I'll be a fire lilly that grows even after the fire
I'll be the flower that grows through the concrete
I'll be the lotus that grows through the destruction
and I will create

my weakness is that i care too much
and the scars remind us that the past is real
i tear my heart open just to feel
i tear myself open just to feel
and i'm drowning
so i breath and remember
who i am

i am

The poet
The painter
The man
The artist

I will.

Let Go

I will learn to let go
I will learn to live free
I know who I am
I know who I'll be

"Be who you are and say what you feel
because those who mind don't matter
and those who matter don't mind."

I choose to live
I chose to live
I choose to love
I chose to love
I choose to know thyself
Know thyself
in this place, read me, read my face

I will learn to love again.

What you are just learning
I already forgot long ago

Self Defense
so I don't even get hung up on the fence
D-Fense
D-Nile
Denial is the first step
then comes anger
soon after comes acceptance

Keep it simple Stupid
Verbal warfare
Art of War
MMA
Krav Ma Ga
Oh my god, who gives a shit

you gotta protect yourself
before you wreck yourself

KISS
Keep it simple
Keep it simple, Stupid
what you are just learning
I have long forgotten

I can't even remember how the saying goes
eat up
hope
live
let go
and love
let go
and live

its funny

its funny you think i give a fuck what you call me, 
it's called hyperactive 
always have been. 
always will be, 
so dear doctors
dr this
dr that
i need a dr
dr. dre gimme the beats
it's all greek to me
alphas betas
it's all this mathematics
used to rap to remember the equations

plug and chug
wears my jug
wears my juice
wears my jin
just kidding
wheres your grin

 it was the medicine that you gave me 
that drove me to the point of insanity 
so thanks for giving me all those white substances 
you had no idea what you were doing, 
im not a drug addict 
i just do what feels right, 

no more uppers,
no more downers
no more blue or yellow purple pills
no more pills
no more white
no more powder
no more ice
it goes health
friends, family

because it just comes down to uppers and downers, 
and you drink to get down, 
you smoke to get high, 
you drink coffee to get up, 

i don't, i live my life, ayee ayeee
nah, i'm not chasing no paper
you use your drugs 
i live my life
it's like questioning what i eat at mcdonalds
use your drugs and i use mine
you eat your food
you drink your wine
convince yourself that it's fine 

my drugs are sex and food, 
what are yours?
looking for something to lick
oral fixations
how many licks does it take to break
down to the lollipop
all these girls licking lil waynes like hes a rapper
he's wack 
he's wacker than wacker
he's crazy 
he's insane
and he spits it straight off his dome
lights up for every song
so you can sing along when the dj throws it on
and if i leave here tonight and i fall asleep
wake up
hopefully she got some teeth
OK
OK

it's the trauma that does it, 
it's the stress, theres nothing more nothing less
my life is now
my life is then
my life is there
it was the stress
i was a mess
i was depressed
like i give a fuck
i digress
i joke i joke
i kid i kid

i do it cause i love it
i do it cause i wanna 
i do it cause i got it from my momma
and i learned it from my daddy
and the only people out there that can talk to me better know me
cause if you dont me 

cabasa es loco
loco es cabaso
capaso
capasa
no habla espanol
no habla englais
but im english
whats up
whats good

you love it
i love it
i want it
you got

f with me 
you know i got it

f with double r
he'll lock you up
i fuck with rashawn ross
dmb
real music

pink floyd
real music
beatles
eminem
biggie
real shit
not fake shit

f all that fancy shit
moneys not even in my vocabulary

i spread love
its my way
it should be your way

you see the log in my eye
i see the log in yours
i see the saw dust in my eye
i see the saw dust in yours

why do you question me
shalom
peace
here now
one day

shalom
peace here
now one
one
one day

one day you're here
one day you're there
you're so unfiar

sipping from your cup
my run is never
cause i used to run track

i used to chill at the rat
cause they gotta them on every campus

it's not about the dollars
it's not about the hollers
it's not about the girls
it's not about the thrills

it's about the music
it's about the people
it's about the children

i love my life
and they can try to lock me up
they can try to hold me down
they can't

they tried
they literally can not
you can try
i try

no, im good

no, im good i dont want to work for you, id rather work for myself, ive read enough books to know you have no idea what you're talking about, and more importantly at least i don't pretend like i know everything, i just know a little bit about a little bit, and i don't mind knowing nothing, do some research and stop believing everything you read, 75% of all statistics are made up (including this one) b/c theres lies, damn lies, statistics, probability, psychology, psychiatry, lawyers, finanial guys, and then there's the devil so be fucking careful with what people who claim they are doctors, lawyers, advisors, investors, venture capitalists, friends, tempory or permanent take what people tell you with a grain of salt because people love to hear themselves talk.

because just like the rest of us the person your asking for help from well they have no clue what they're doing so use your brain - it's not anger, it's not resentment, it's not pesimistic, it's called realistic optimism, so be mindful and keep your eyes open and your head on a swivel,

i know where i am, i know where i'm going and i know how to get there, and they say you only live once, but really you can live a thousand lives, you only die once, so be careful and treat your mind, body and soul right,

and words have power, so don't use them to hate, use them to love, listen to good music, put on sunscreen, do shit in moderation, but don't smoke too much, don't fuck too much, don't drink too much and you can love as much as you want, but don't give them everything if they can't handle it, b/c most people don't want everything, they just want enough to make them feel warm and gooey inside, so you leave them wanting more and they'll want you forever, but if you love someething set it free

and remember once the mutual benefit is gone, they'll be gone just like any other relationship, so love your family, appreciate your friends, try not to fuck too many people over, and be an asshole, cause remember do unto others as you wish they would do unto you and it's easy to point out the saw dust in my eye, but it's funny that you can't see the log in your eye, if you need help don't be afraid, just ask someone you care about to listen, and don't think they'll have the answers, because they won't they'll just have a couple nods and a hug and that's all you can ask for from a true friend, and true friends are hard to find, but family will be there forever.

and the people that knock on your door when you want to be alone just want to see how you're doing so maybe wipe away your tears and let them inside, or leave em if they reallly care they'll be back one day, but you never know cause everything can be gone in a day, one wrong turn, one wrong move, and poof your existence is swept away and you live on in the people that think they knew you

love unconditionally, but be careful, because love hurts like a mother fucker, it hurts more than friendship, it hurts more than family, but love works, right, but what's love got to do with it, this is just life, so live it

Titanium

72 Hours
You can lock me in a room
4 walls
no posters
You think you can break me
Ha
They've been trying to break me for 24 years
Ha
72 years
72 hours
72 minutes
72 seconds
10 seconds left
buzzer beaters

Can't hold me down
Can't lock me away
I locked myself away for much longer than that

Lock me up
Hold me down
Knock me up
Shoot me up

Ha
72 Hours
Can't keep me down
Can't hold me down
No never

Ain't no one gonna break my stride
ain't no one gonna hold me down
oh no
I got to keep on moving

No Never
Can't hold me down

I'm titatnium
I'm platium
I'm not bullet proof
I'm not gold
I'm not silver
I'm nothing
but I got the bible and the torah and holy scriptures in my brain\
and i can spit them straight at your dame
right 50

Kill me
I'm already dead
Shoot me
I'm already shot

I've been dead
but I'm still walking
I'm so alive
everything that kills me makes me feel alive

You could never be on my level
Cause I've been so high
so low

I'm already dead
from the moment I was alive
I'm gone
I'm like dust in the wind
and I just don't give a fuck
guess what
I still don't give a fuck

Cause once you surrender
and you realize there's nothing to live for
you find out that there's only something to die for

but not for you
no not for you
just for me
and you'll never understand me
good
Once you surrender
that's right when you start living

72 hours
You could lock me away for 1000 years
you could lock me in a room
you could lock me in a prison
with 4 walls, all white, no posters, no food,
no water, no life to live,
it'll never compare to the mental prison
that i locked myself away in 8 times
1 shot, 2 shot, 3 shot
shoot me up with whatever you got
like i give a fuck

Ha
I'll be laughing straight to the bank
Like I give a fuck

72 Hours
You think you can break me
you can't
you never could
you never will
cause you can try
but I could never let you

You try to hurt me with goodbyes
You think I'd crumble
You think I'd lay down and die?
Oh no not I?
I'm already dead because I'm alive
everything that kills me makes me feel alive
whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger
so fucking rip off my arms
you tried
rip off my legs
you tried
rip out my heart
you did
like i give a fuck

I'm so alive that you can't even touch me
Can't keep me away
Can't keep me down
can't knock me off my stride

cause i've been locked up
I've been fucked up
i've been knocked down
I've been knocked up

everyday
I get up
I chose to get up
I chose to live

ha
72 hours
ITA
like i give a fuck
just tell me the ETA
and I'll be there
no no snow flake
no no mary jane
no no alcohol
just straight scriptures in my brain
it's like a holy book
but it's a holy brain
straight through your dome
straight to your dame
i don't care where i live
cause I'm already home

72 hours
ha
you tried to hold me down
and i fucked you up
cause i'm your reflection
i'm a mirror of me
if you fuck with me
i'll fuck with you
i'm a reflection of self
and i'm not doing this for you
i'm doing this for me
i'm not doing this for sales
i'm doing this for me

if you're worth my time
but most of you aren't
too bad
but some of you are
those select few
who understand
don't fuck with me
cause i'm crazy
been crazy
like i give a fuck
cause i'm not crazy
i'm so sane that you don't even understand what level of rationality
no nationality, just a human
no country, just blood
just water, just love

72 hours ha
I'm titatnium
I'm gold
I'm silver
I don't give a fuck if you call me a hypocrite
I'm a fiend
I'm a friend
I'm an asshole
I'm a joker, I'm a smoker, I'm a midnight toker

I'm the nicest guy you'll ever meet
I'm the nicest guy you'll never know

Like i give a fuck
I haven't cared in years
but i still would wipe away your tears
cause it's not love that guides you
it's all of those fears

72 hours ha
I'm bulletproof
fucking shoot me up with whatever you got
cause i've done it all
cause i know i've done nothing
i'm dirt, im perfect, im an idiot
sevant
retarded what did that nurse say

brain damage since the day i was born
all these carcinogens, teratogens, gens, gens, gens
it's my dna that made me
the protein that syntehsized into something that you can never hold back

can't hold me down
can't lock me away
like i give a fuck if i was gone
it'd be your loss
you stupid mother fuckers

i'll just act as if
i'll act as if I care
cause you could dare
to share your world with me
and I could dare to give you one little glimpse
of what i've been through
you'll never understand

you'll never understand
the horrors i've seen
the death i've seen
i got skeletons in my closet,
cause they're mine
they're my broken bones
and my scars
and busted cars
busted glass
no class, just back packs
and all the baggage that i carry with me
like a chip on my shoulder
i'm a fucking boulder

barreling through
been a while
still burning up
like a candle

you ain't gotta like me
you just mad cause i tell how it is
you just tell how it might be

got this shit mac tight, brass knuckles and flash lights
listening to tupac, biggie, eminem
like i give a fuck about all the little posers that hate on me

i still don't give a fuck
i just don't give a fuck

but believe me i care more than you'll ever know