Clock beats Constant

Clock Beats Constant
but always feels too fast
flying like a kite
but the high never lasts
never lasts
too fast
never lasts



Can't mask a mask,
a fake facade of formality
it's FAKE
except for fatality
this is my reality
this is our reality
actual

actually
actuality
live my life with rationality
I'm white
no nationality
only proud to be a jew
being jewish can help
just by being part of a tribe,
a group
one
one

but God
can screw with you
Rabbi, Coach, Dad: Where's my spot?
Why can't I chill out?
Chill out in left field
is that my spot
out there maybe smoking some pot.


Chronic, NYC Diesel, Cali Chronic
Chronic Illness
Depression is a sickness
Bipolar Type II
Mood disorder
you think it's hard
but only a few do
if any
as if any
know what I do
What I go through

private life, private life




with as much strife as I strike down upon myself
so I
I raise up the gavel, and never put it down,
no judgement, only I can judge me
"God can judge me"

I get a good crew
stay in school
stay cool like a fish in a pool
just an off green pea in a pod
twirl like a hot tub
just wanna be a good hub

one love, one lover, one love
one, one, eleven
one, one, can i make this heaven
if i already experienced hell
tick tock
tick tock
hands on the clocks
lying in the hands of god

clock beats constant
but always feels to quick
this moments an instant
this shit will never stick