One Day I'll Be

Can I treat you right
I can't be what I want to be
For you, for the world,
The guy that you deserve
but
I'm here

I can be who you want
I can be who you need
I can be the person you deserve

The Situation to be in
To see in
To see inside
The side of a situation
This side of a side by side

version of the truths
cause half of them are lies
or is their only one?

manipulated
emasculated
mauled and mamed

Stuck in this sea of the same
people pretending to be who they're not

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I feel
feel love
living a certain way
life before you and life now
just ain't the same
changed
but
still the same

shame
fame
came
gone
lame
same

Damaged
an image
innocence overcome by truth
innocence
is it ignorance is bliss

stay still in these fits
fighting for
love
fighting for faith
fighting
to be resilient

relax, rest

You can't outsmart this
You can't hide from something
You can't hide from your life, your love
You become overcome by something greater than yourself
Overcome by becoming
a better man

Time of my life
Making my life
seeing it form
firm up
up to form

Swarm
Swan
Swarm
Bees
busy little bees
ants marching
changing directions
movements

spinning like a compass
on the north pole
living a life
recreating your role
fitting a role

creating something
but nobody knows what they're doing
why they're doing
just why
who
what where why when how
how could we be in this current situation
current scenario
is there a better place to go
what what's the scenario

inside
outside
ephemeral
everlasting
fantastic
maleable like plastic
plasticity
electricity

cities form
bigger and bigger
networks combine
Houses into blocks,
blocks into streets,
streets into neighborhoods,
neighborhoods into cities and suburbs,

it's absurd cause it's the house
made of bricks, doors, and roofs
of concrete, poercelan, water, bricks, steel and sand
manufactured in a way that you don't even realize
can we even comprehend
all these patterns forming patterns
one blending into the next
one life

one
role in a play
plastered into a cast
a group
a culture
an environment

a life
one life to lead
one life to live

going where the story takes you
seeing life unfold
in art and reality
music to the mind
meaning to the brain

beautiful sets
beautiful production
execution executing and shooting all these ideas out of me
so I can see
seeing you
seeing me

One thing or the next
all or nothing
anything is something
creating relationships
finding meaningful relationships

having fun and having meaning
having a reason
to believe in
cause everything happens for a reason right?
hmmm i don't know about that one
I doubt it
while all these people are shouting it
cause it doesn't mean anything
because meaning comes on after
so its like your racing in some race
but only when you look back
you were chasing something
that you're not even after.

Laughter ha ha
it's funny
how simple such complex things can be
because we see them in a way
but its not the way it really is
it's just a model of reality
of us being in this world
all these notions and emotions clouding our judgement

fudge it, cause most of them didnt know what the fuck they were doing
measuring shit just to observe not to correlate, destory or create
always looking for cause
causation, when sometimes their ain't
markers, targets, surveys, confounding

independent
dependent
alternating like a wave

vibration
one movement to the next
impulse
just a brief force for a short time
bump bump
pulsating
relaying all relevant realizations
cause I feel these sensations
that you can't even describe

cause when your going for something a vibe is a vibe
can't hide from a vibe
can't hide from your life

like living in a blimp
floating over everything and
never coming down to earth
understanding
living not planning

though this span
life span
development
embryo
oh no
yes yes
no no
show

old dog
no tricks
new tricks
its tricky yah yah
its tricky
getting stuck in all these sticky situations

holy shit
show
shit show
free for all

Free for you
Free for me
but connected in ways that you can't even see
energy, chemicals and electricity
its tricky

figuring out what i want and what i need
all i need is safety and food to feed on
then is everything else what i want?

who knows
maybe you can tell me one day
and when you dream
We can dream together

One Day