Doing Doing

Doing Shit
Can't quit
push it, push it
fast fast
too slow
s l o w
faster faster
until I master
bar after bar
without a bar
no lsat
no bars for me
go far far
shoot for the moon
just to be a star
sometime you gotta eat the bitch
like it's a hearts game
spades, kings, queen
hearts, just playing
shooting for the moon

I'm aces even though
people think I'm a joker
is that what they think?
"well there are many here among us who feel like is but a joke"
Think I'm a joker
case I'm wild
but under control
an adult
not a child
attack me
I'll break  you
break it down cause we're all glass houses
blow em down like your the three little pigs
blow it down like a house made of a deck of cards
duck duck or get decked
duck duck goose
loose the way I choose what to do
Can life be an impluse?
Am I just a force over time
time passes seconds elapse
moments pass
hope this shit doesn't go too fast
living in the moment
but the moment nevers last cause
i'm always in motion
adding force
minimize friction
contantly changing
only thing constant is change
got the money
but i won't drink the potion
moving moving bump heads
moving beat
moving to the beat
beat box
beeeeeep
leave a message
beeeeeep
call waiting
waiting
tick tock
waiting
waiting for amazing

Heads Up (pt. 2)

Living my life free
lucky to be alive
lucky to be able to strive
and I'm on the grind
ambitious
maybe a little vicious
nobody wished this
except me
I am, me me me
do rae me
I'm
motivated
no, not grandiose
I use to fly high
high as the highest kite in the sky
ungrounded, gregarious grandiosity
now it's all about
generosity

but now I see
All i can be
live life
with responsibility
opportunistically
optimistically
entrepreneurially

less egotistically
statistically significant
correlation but no causation
Who Am I?
Why I Am
Ego
Leggo my eggo
Am I what I do?
Default Error
Eros
Love to live with logic but I'm still
society's default imprint
logic error, logic error
Boolean = false
programming a new language
fallacy, but I'm a human
speaking to robots
catharsis and all
I'm infallible
am I just a machine?
maybe I'm just real valuable
variable
or am I a constant
as I speak the consonants into morphemes and memes
are some just like robots
Need more morphene
caffeiene
uppers and downers
need a tune up
a smoke and a pancake

I, Robot, Asimov
As I move dynamically
no not, plastic
but plasticity
live life more realistically
fake real
surreal physical
realism physicalism
physical reality

descartes and his mind
dennet and his state
state of mind
my state of mind

I'm strong but no iron man
but I run shit
I run my life
I run my mind
I run my world

I live my life
pleasure pain
been restrained
restraint
meditate
in a room but don't ruminate

I can deal with strife
I'm young, no don't need a wife
just a life

please put down that knife
it's not worth it
but "cut that little child"

just gotta take care of myself
one day at a time
i live my life with my head up
you could call me Abraham
licking and tasting the world
honest like abe
Looking for
a way to drive and explore
staying real
like lincoln
American Penny
Penny on the floor
Penny on the traintrack
Two in my hand, 1 in the bush
Penny in my ear
and the beat goes....

Heads Up

Just a heads up,
I flip pennies up
cause I make my own luck

living how I want to
cause
I just don't give a fuck

no, not pressing the fuck it button
just
fuck you
if you think you know
cause you dont

if you try to define me
define define
before you think you know
what goes on in my mind

cause you don't give a fuck
you just fill in the blanks
mad like mad libs
ads like ad libs
improv
improve
you don't know me, homey
you don't know a a gram about me and you def don't don't know an ounce about me
so don't take another step
"cause people in glass houses shouldn't throw stones"
I'm a rolling stone
I'm a 6 footer
and you don't got an inch
"King Kong ain't go shit on me"
you dont got an inch
you only care about the air that you breath
cough cough
excuse me
sorry no smoking
no no
no smoking for me

you just see the tip
kinda like an ice berg
like titanic
panic panic panic
attack stay calm
like me i'm just being
being mysterious
underneath
underrneath it all
"it's like i'm wearing nothing at all"
nothing at all
but everything
my mystery
but constantly expanding
compiling a conglomerate
like water into ice..
burn baby burn
"like disco infern"
dante's inferno
my internal light

fire and ice
this world's a piece of shit
"it ain't hard to fucking tell"
but its nice
this world's icy hot
bitter sweet
dark chocolate

I'm just pure milk
kids called me whitey
casper and ghost
only
cause I cared what they said
I still don't understand
how I lent out space in my head

Rent's too high now like
I'm N.Y.C.
cause you'll never understand
you'll never understand me
but i'll keep on standing
been standing, stood cause I should
sitting like a laserjet
and I see the whole gray scale
the whole rainbow
every damn wave length

and your robotic like a printer
like a printer
you are just a robot
 printing in black and white

Dangerously Dialectical

Dangerously Dialectical, Dialectibal?
Cognitive Dissonance is not delectable
especially in my delicately woven mind
oh me, oh me, my mind, all mine so
mind your own business
me doing me
you doing you
yours is yours
mine is mine
you can choose your
choice is choosing
your voice is worth using
do you see?

Do you choose to live opportunistically?
See
opportunity when it's difficult
Can't see difficulty in every opportunity
Or is that lie?
Is life a lie?
Week after week, every week can't be a bye
bye bye today, bye week
tomorrow is just an excuse for today
tomorrow is just an excuse
week by week, weak once but I'm strong
Is life a bore? a joke? a chore?

Just adding insult to injury
digging a ditch that never gets built
digging a ditch that has no bottom
down down down
Stop
Stop digging
climbing out
climbing out to where?

Do we see that we can't see
or can't we see that we can see?
wait..
we can see
can't we?
what
we can't see
can we?

Can we continue to hear without listening
grinning back at the gregarious while
I'm a busy little bee
living life vivaciously
lovingly
everyday a baby's born
washed away with water, blessed and cleaned

the weather changes whenever
regardless of me

Whether the willow wilts or the flower blooms
I will smile with my light like lightning
BOOM
through the dark sky
I
as I
accept this world with pleasure and plight
darkness and light
stuck in a world with people who follow
people who follow
people who follow
with no reason, no rhyme
rotting like robots
rusting
living but following
arbitrarily

arbitrary
lines in the dirt
switching sides in the sand
switching shapes
like lines in the sand

but I'm unlimited but limited to level up,
mushroom like Mario, up up and away

to the lesser man cause I gotta
fly to the top of the castle
chill with Yoshi, live life moderately

unless it's all you can eat sushi
mmm sushi palace

rhyming, I think
I think well
I think I know it all
but I know I don't
but I know I gotta write rhymes
rhyme rhymes, play with words
write lines
consonants and verbs cause it keeps me sane
in this contradiction
contradictory?
a hypocritical hierarchy
of harmony?
hardly harmony living life
is it about love?
is it a lie?
is it all about love?
If I take it as I please
no not fake, genuine cause
I make the most of each day

HEY HEY HEY...
CARPE DIEM EVERYDAY

Requiem

Seen arms like requiem for a dream
Heroine has no heroine
Protagonist can become an antagonist
Passing out like Pereg
Peg Leg and Popped Eye

Getting strong like Pop Eye eating spinach
as I spin until I ache
but atleast I don't fake it
Stupid uncomfortable bitches
not knowing what to do with their pathetic lives
with their uncomfortable, pathetic time

Some are just
Fixed to do ridiculous shit
like snorting powder off dicks
cock a doodle do
doodling is what I do

except I doodle with with my mind
write it all up and post up
like a sign
stop

stop
relax for a moment
sit still
I will
too bad I need a pill
but atleast its prescribed
the doctors say
its not just a cheap thrill
thrashing and trashing but staying
in one spot
ruminating in a room
unable to zoom
zoooom out
just zoom in like I can see
a bobby pin in the hay
hey there dude I hope
you don't think I'm rude
just spitting out lines
cause I'm in the mood
maybe I'm lude but
whatever will be will be

ya babe
the future's not ours to see
ha rah ha rah

hoo ray for the day that relaxation can stay
peace of mind with
no piece in the mouth
just peace
just peace
just peace in a mirror

the man in the mirror
that man in the mirror
he may lose but
I Am
I think I Am
therefore I am
the man in the mirror
confident, confidence can be a killer
cause
pride is the sign of a foolish man
stare too long
break the mirror
stare too long
break the mirror
fuck this place
fuck this place

I'm a winner